Bayadir Mohamed-Osman
Bayadir Mohamed-Osman is a Sudanese American public health professional, poet, and community organizer based in Maryland. She is currently pursuing her Masters of Public Health at Johns Hopkins Bloomberg School. Currently, she provides young adults with disabilities professional development and supports meaningful employment. She has performed in Philly, Denver, Dallas, and Los Angeles to name a few cities. Her poetry examines her intersectional identity as a Black Muslim Sudanese woman. She uses her platform and voice to advocate for marginalized communities and her home country Sudan.
Connection
Talking to God been so hard
I don’t know if I’m asking for
Help or an apology
It’s hard to live for Him
When some days i do not
have a will to live
God, forgive me for not
Loving everything about this life
There isn’t a gift receipt
I cannot return this.
I told Mazin 2019
Making Duaas have gotten harder
Before I can speak to Him
I got to shut my anxiety first
Anxiety has made my calls
To Him poor connection
Have you ever tried talking
In a loud room
Have you
I know He hears me
Regardless
They say meditate
Just sit
Talk to Him
Listen
But I cannot hear Him
Some days
Over the loud drums
They say follow the signs
Your gut
Your instinct
But in an anxious mind
Everything is scary
And loud
And Gods grace
Is disguised