Life’s Image

By Alam Taj


1.Life


What is our life? What’s seen and what is dreamed…

   mixed together

Comfort and pain, eagerness, weariness…mixed together

Pleasure, its joy, but melded with maliciousness and spite,

Gold and possessions, straining and struggle…

   mixed together

Hope’s flicker of bright light, which is the lamp by which

   we live---

Its lovely flame, the wind that blows it out…

   mixed together

Truly, what’s possible? What’s man, who swells us with

   such pride? 

A tale beset with queries by the hundred… mixed together

That star of the high heavens, this rotten core that is

   the earth---

Are nothing inside nothing, dreams involved with

   dreams…mixed together

Our every certainty hedged round with doubts and 

   hesitations

Our every cause a mass of possibilities…mixed together

Are you aware what death is? It’s a lesson learned in anguish,

A silence squabbled over endlessly…mixed together

The blessings of the afterlife are dreams spun out of dreams,

Earth’s glory is the sun’s rise, and its setting…

   mixed together


2.Woman


What is a woman, then? O God…! This play, plaything,

   essence

With no substance, what is she? Potshards and dirt…

   mixed together

Her life’s years dragging on, her mind’s new growth that

   comes too late,

Seeing what’s here, longing for what might be….  

   mixed together

The scalding fire that is her tears, the blaze of her deceit,

Her chastity, and her immoderate lust…mixed together

An artificial face, made up of eye-shadows and rouge,

A dreadful sight, the leering of a pimp…mixed together

An evil nature that is covered over with false beauty

A weak soul hidden with a brazen lie…mixed together


3.Man


And what is man? This empty show, this nothingness,

   this vegetable---

As though, to make him, heaven took dirt and sin…

   mixed together

He lifts the great flag of his manly glory to the skies

But woman’s insight sees right through that flag…they’re

   mixed together

What’s man but one who scrapes a nasty morsel for

   himself---

His wife’s tears and her blood have made that 

   morsel…mixed. Together

His blazing love is soon extinguished in the sheets---

   he’s present

But he’s absent; he’s kind, and then he’s angry…

   mixed together


And what’s religious marriage in our irreligious age? 

It’s what’s unlawful and what’s lawful now…

   mixed together

It’s wedding candles that were lit with an untruthful hand

It’s wedding candies cooked with moral poison…

   mixed together

Is this religious marriage, or religious fornication?

But no, I’m wrong, it’s marriage and it’s torture…

   mixed together

The thing I’ve understood from my ill-omened marriage is

Companionship came with calamity…mixed together

Man is the more deceitful one, woman’s the more unfaithful,

One’s bad, the other’s worse, and both are evil…

   mixed together

If one of them should turn out to be good (which happens

   rarely)

That person’s filthy earth and limpid water…

   mixed together

Let me sum up: if someone sees existence as it is,

This world is ugly, with a bit of beauty…mixed together.


By Alam Taj, translated by Dick Davis in Mirror of My Heart: A Thousand Years of Persian Poetry by Women (Penguin Books, 2021), reprinted by permission of Dick Davis