Samina Anthony
Samina is a Registered Nurse and an International Board Certified Lactation Consultant. She currently works for a large hospital network in Northeastern PA in a program called Nurse-Family Partnership. Samina studied at the University of London, and at the University of Cambridge, where she earned an Honors Bachelor of Science in Immunology, and a Post-Graduate Certificate in Education respectively. She, subsequently, went on to obtain another Bachelor of Science degree in Nursing and is currently working on her Master of Science degree at DeSales University to become a Nurse Practitioner. On a more personal note, Samina lives in Macungie, PA with her husband, three children, and their bearded dragon. She likes to spend her free time journaling, reading historical fiction, and hiking.
~ Allah is to the servant what he believes him to be ~
~ Ask and you shall receive ~
~ Allah is the best keeper of promises ~
I wish I truly understood this before. I have lived with such anxiety and fear for my whole life. I have spent countless nights crying. Hurt by other people. Not knowing where to turn. Worrying about what people thought of me. Worrying if I had offended someone. Worrying that I am not enough. I begged You to show me the way. To complete me.
When I asked You to guide me and to bring me closer to You, You embraced me with Your love and I felt Your presence. You showed me things I could only imagine. You guided me to pray the night prayer. You guided me to hear the right people speak. You guided me to learn about the exact book I needed to read when I randomly tuned into the author being interviewed on the radio whilst driving. Ya Haadi, You guided me. I am not a risk taker. I have always cast a thousand nets - safety nets - to always give me the illusion of calm. This became a way of life. Now I feel like I soar and fly and no longer need these nets as You are always there to catch me.
I have desperately prayed for things that were so deep in my heart. Many prayers I thought went unanswered. But now I see that whatever the outcome of my dua, it is always the best answer…because it is from You. I never imagined I could
pray with such conviction knowing that You will give me anything I sincerely ask for…just not on my timeline. I no longer dwell in the emptiness of fear that You may choose to let me suffer. You are always there hearing me and answering me. Ya Khaliq, ya Salam. Ya Khaliq, Ya Salam, the zikr I have been meditating on, which gives me peace.
Your Qadr is perfect even when it does not lead to what I had expected. It is all part of Your plan for me. I asked You and made the intention to accept whatever You gave me. I know in my heart of hearts that it is sufficient and perfect because it is from You. What more could I desire? I am here because of You. Inalillaheh wa ina elaihe rajioon. From You do I come, and unto You do I return. I belong to You. I am here to worship You. My body is on loan from You. One day You will take me back. There, any remaining promises You made to me will be fulfilled.
I am at peace and content knowing this.
~ Illahe Ameen ~